on the days i manage to get out of bed, i thoroughly enjoy keeping myself very occupied and busy, in touch with friends and society. i like to have things to do, and i like to be stimulated; emotionally, intellectually, and physically, naturally. sadly, i have another side.. one thats unmotivated, lethargic, tired, and restless. this nearly always results in some type of anxiety and boredom...excessive analyzing of a single moment or interaction, general apathy, deflated ego, strong desire to draw my drapes and sleep (all day) and extreme irritation with everything/one. and sometimes this horrid lull lasts up to 14 days!! two weeks? what is that shit? and then it becomes difficult to imagine that the darkness will ever pass, but then suddenly its gone. and i forget i was even upset in the first place.
when im up im really up, and when im down im really down.
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