oh you fancy huhhh

i often find myself missing the bouncey vibe of the mountains. i like to meet new people as much as possible, looking for wild stories and an even better time. there, thinking about banff, theres no shortage of stupid shit and stupid people. jealousy (which im convinced is a soul-eating disease, a fucking relentless cancer in your heart and head) builds so much tension, its too much to handle sometimes, youre like what the fuck am i even doing here? where are the sane people!!? well, there arent any. everyones got a complex...although some just tend to be more like expensive bad habits. me included, no doubt, ive defintiely got an issue or two hahah. but jealousy, thankfully, isnt one of my bad ones.

what attracts me to the town most is that i like the idea of lost souls, because i often feel like i am one. and its chock full of people who know theyve got a talent for something and they build their own niche and use their big personalities and skills...whatever they might be.. rugby maybe, or rowing, climbing mountains, entreprenurialism, snowboarding, customer service, hair dressing, or hustlin. fuck, if you just invest a little time into the town, youre inevitably going to find something youre good at, make some money, and meet people who enjoy the same things as you. theyll be nutty though, so jus be careful. but i will say one thing, the town is high on quality and low on quantity. but you pay for that too, remember hah.

i wish there were more lost souls here, people who are empathetic and who show individualism and respect for others to just be. i like that. to be able to just be, for all of your craziness, insanity, pervertedness, lack of direction, and for all the times you show a straight disregard for basic ethics and morals, like not making out with your friends boyfriend at the bar or waaay overstaying your welcome when visiting from Nelson. these types of things put strain on all of your relationships, try to avoid them at all costs, no matter where you live! but, they happen. and often. and sometimes what you were coming to consider friendships dissolve in front of you. it sucks when it happens but boy does it sure build character!!! i like that too.
unfortuantely, all of this energy breeds an aggressiveness too. people always striving to talk a notch over the others. its too bad the others consist of a feisty australian male a few too many whiskey drinks deep and a windsor g with a ball and a bong talkin bout whether or not Cath, la stripper quebecois, gives the best blowjobs. consensus says she does yeeeea ahahahhahahh

but having said alllll of this stupid bullshit about banff, i will say that i adore the town because i have not much else to compare it to....i like Van too, but wish i could have spent more time. i need to get out and travel more. even though ive got a lot on my plate now with school and a practicum coming up quick, im getting that impatient itch to just fuck off and see some shit. lets go to europe or south america already, come onnnn!! or christ, i'll take san francisco, new york, montreal (hi cath), or chicago even!