what is it about reading my own writing that turns me off? this blog is in no way a formal venue and i most definitely dont write for an audience. as i re-read what ive written i see that i largely write to work through a situation or idea, not to tell a story. i guess its like my thought process for reaching a decision or conclusion. much like im doing right now. but theres something about the words thats wrong. this off-ness nags at me, it always has, which is why i dont really go out of my way to share any material ive written, whether its for school, work, or leisure. maybe its the syntax...or diction? maybe im just being a big fucking baby and need to grow up. or maybe i just need more practice. to do THAT, i need to get motivated. more imporantly, i need to get inspired. some day i would like to write something beautiful.