things got a little out of control in my last post. sometimes that happens.
ive been looking for some change within the last couple months. nothing major, i like my situations. school, home, work, life, health..its all pretty good, i must say. but theres something missing. routine and boredom make for a restless self. my problem is that i know what the solution is...but i cant obtain it, not like this. its been 24 years, im doing the same shit over and over, and im consistently getting the same results. isnt that a widely accepted pseudo-definition of insanity? i need a change within myself, a new way of thinking. i know what my issue is, ive identified it, i recognize it, but i am not qualified to help myself figure out a way to work against it, to correct it, my thinking patterns. thats years and years of wear and tear on the same beaten path. i need my mind opened to new theories and new perspectives. more specifically, i need my mind opened to enlightened theories and perspectives. I NEED TO KNOW WHERE THIS SHIT COMES FROM. maybe someones met someone like me? ive got to be a classic case of something? to initiate the change, i will have to elicit the help of a third party.
but whom? fuck.
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